Hi everyone, as you can imagine, we cannot at this time accept condolences or apologies - its too painful to repeat the story or answer questions - therefore sending everyone requests here tells the story. Our little boy was 5 months old and they picked up many problems, they said if it was one e.g heart, they could of worked with it to do something. He had underdeveloped heart, cleft, brain damage and spina bifida. They said if we carried full term he would not last and we would give birth to still born anyways - even if he lived for a few moments. We decided due to his pain to not carry on. They said we would still need to give birth and it would need to be natural as there was no other way he could come out. He delivered 24 hours later from when we arrived at the hospital. We had the most amazing doctors/midwives and angels around supporting us. Darren and I looked at the whole experience as a blessing and huge transformation, the midwife even commented that she couldn't believe that we were not being morbid and just accepting and trusting. We still waiting for pics to develop - and he was beautiful when he was born.